i still have sand in my shoes
Mood:  accident prone
and i cant shake the thought of you
i should get on, forget you, but why would i want to?
i know we said good bye, anything else would have been confused, but I~~~~~~~~~~
wanna see you again



just got an email from emlio. he got back to mexico a week or so ago. he's really happy to be home. i'm not sure when dany goes home, but i hope to hear from her soon sometime too. kind of flipped out last time i talked torose, i hope she still loves me.....i'll call her again some time. i really need her to stick around cuz i really love that girl.
tracy called at grams house the other day. it was nice talking to her, and i havent really since i went to korea. she talked to me one time on msn but i couldnt talk back, so this was nice. it ended sort of akwardly cuz of a miscommunication with mom and her, and mom comes home from grams house all mad at me, of course its myfault right? right infront of jack and everything. how embaressing! she apologized later, and everything went back to normal.

things here are less than normal i think, but its hard to say whta i'd even consider normal anyways. i think i just need a break from this place for a lil bit. thats pretty much why i left for korea in the first place, and now its not much different than before i left. it feels like no time went by at all,that i've just been asleep, or dreaming for a long time. no one here can relate to that experience.

i cant leave things well alone
understand i'm accident prone

i got all my classes for next year situated after i got home. that seems to be fine, and i think with just the hours i have for being at the middleschool will be enough toget a health credit and an english credit. also im getting an extra credit for foreign language. just 1 credit. personally i think i deserve more than that, but i should do fine with just that. im taking a 7 class work load, which gives me space to negotiate, and i can drop a class if ith ink its too much.
got a german book from mrs lambert so i could study some of that before tking germna again. i havent really studied it like i promised myself i would over the summer. but things are really hectic. i havent even hd the time or motivation to unpack all my luggage sufficiently.

once i got back i went on 2 trips, one with jimmy jack and jimmy's family. we went camping up north with laurie so she could see moose. and we did! we saw 7 of them, which was really exciting for her and she took lots of pictures. it was a bad few days to go camping because the weather was really crappy, but thats what makes camping fun right? the misquitos and the soggy tents, what a blast right?!? haha

the second trip we went on after i got home was a trip to old orchard beach. it was really good weather which was so nice. laurie, laura, ( the mexican exchange student) mom me aunt karen all went up and met lucretia and some of herfriends and family members. first day we spent some time at the beach. the second day we went to fun town and splash town in saco. that night we stayed at a hotel right on the beach and did a walk around of the old orchard strip. me and my aunt karen were planningo n getting tattoos but theplace we watned to get that done at was closed that night and didnt open on wednesdays, (our last day in oob) plus i guess its a new policy to not let minors get tattoos even if their parents are present and have given them permission. so i probably wouldnt ahve been able to get one anyways. oob was a blast, the beach is so beautiful. i even went in the water. it was pleasently numbing, but good.

tomorrow me mom and laurie are spending the night in portland so we can get laurie to the airport early wednesday morning. i've only known laurie a short time, but she is such a sweet girl. she is also a really important part of moms life too. i'll miss her i know. and she is really sad about leaving.

been partying enough now that im home. last weekend cayla and i went to jodi and leslies house in brooks for a party, and didnt get home until 5 the next morning, but had caught a really bad cold, so had to stay home all that day to recover.

went to see the sisterhood of the traveling pants with max laurie and chas. it was good, but very chick flicky, and some parts were just stupid. but over all it was an ok movie. dad came home that day too, so me and laurie went to the airport to meet him. we dont know when he is suppose to go back to work, but seems to htink they will call him back at any time.

tracy comes home on the 13th. i've been telling everyone she was coming home on august 11th but the rotary changed it back to july because they didnt' think she had anywheres to stay for the extra month.

i have to do a project for the unity rotary on my year in korea and that is due tomorrow for their rotary breakfast. it only has to be 15 minutes long, so i shouldnt be stressing over it like i am. i only have today left to put that together, so im going to go do some work on that.

-love-