Simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting older and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?





that is over. thanks for coming, staying, being interested, or experiencing it with me.


rose dany emilio julian
lets meet again, "somewhere only we know"
love you guys, thanks for everything.



i'll start a new blog sometime. Just of life in general, if I have time. It'll be at /thought *kisses*

away game
Mood:  accident prone
fieldhockey preseason game at gillford, or something like that. i didnt play any of the varsity game, but then again...i suck at fieldhockey, and missed practice yesterday to go to bangor and get my eyebrow ring out. but we had a jv game which we werent suppose to have during preseason, so i got to play all of that, which was only a 30 minute game.... but it was sweltering. holy mother, im glad i didnt have to play any of the varsity game, when the sun was more direct. i was sweating balls just in the warm ups. varsity didnt win, and i dont think anyone scored for the jv game on either team. but the ball was definitely on our defensive half for the better part of the 30 minutes. the jv goalie rocks though. shes only a sophomore or freshman but shes determined. our next game isnt until next week, but we could all use the practice...varsity and jv.

its time to make this something that is more than only fair
Mood:  blue
I havent written for a while now, so i thought i'd throw a lil in here. just for myself probably


fieldhockey pre season started a couple weeks ago. the first week was soo hard, we were hving 2 practices a day, and my muscles were shredded. but i skipped a few and was back on my feet for the next week. we had a scrimmage the other day with camden belfast and georges valley. myra, a friend from way back in the day, (elementary school girlfriend) was there, which was kick ass, cuz i've missed her like crazy. i tried calling her once, but she wasnt around. after the scrimmage she called and we talked for a while. we'll have to get in touch sometime. kristin ireland also called a few days ago. me, tracy, myra and kristin were all best buds back in 4th-6th grade. kristin and us kind of ended on bad terms but that was way way back, and shes changed now. so hopefull i'll see something of her soon. and myra too. that would be great, bringing back old ties!

october, my rose is coming over!!!! it makes me super happy!!! i could just shit!!! i love my rose soooooo much. expeciallly i am missing her, now that my max has taken a 2 week vac to europe. it will be a long ass 2 week,s but she deserves a break from her family and maine. everyone does. so rose and her bf too are coming up for a couple weeks. i dont think i have any vacations in october but im so excited that im actually going to see my rose again!! yessss!

everyone else, im not srue whats going on with them. i might as well be half a world away again, for all i knwo about whats going on in the life of heather, carrie, jimmy, ...anyone. maybe it'll be better when school starts. i htink jimmy is coming back to mt view next year.

so, practice got over an hour ago, and now its supper time! woot woot! then...shower!! yess life is boring


things are good with jack. saw him on the weekend. he works on the weekdays, most of them. dont hear much from him on those days. its really dissapointing, i thought i'd see him today. theres not much else to look forward to,but i really do look forward to the time iget to spend with him. usually its once a week. one day on the weekend, unless hes got concerts lined up. i really wish i saw more of him, all my other friends seem to have ditched, and have their own agendas. the week days are pretty lonely. im jealous of tracy for being needed by chan'tal, and hanging out with the gardners and phil and jray. christ, phil comes over every day, usually even spends the night, and they arent even dating! i need to get friends like that. but im prolly just being greedy. im taking jack away from his friends too, the 5 minute phone calls and the 1 or 2 days a week i get to see him. ok i dont really think i am, but in his defense....


ehh, its gonna be a week. i havent heard from dany or emilio for a long time. and i've pretty much given up on julian. hes really busy moving to spain and getting into college i'm sure.


so suppers getting cold next door at grams, then i'll stay for a few games of cards. tracy and phil will prollybe over in a lil bit too. she went shopping with chantal today in bangor. i'll be headed there tomorrow i think, to get my eyebrow ring taken out, and replaced with onei can actually take out on my own. and i'm goingtoretake my permit test too.

so
anyounghi kasaeyo
saranghae rose!
hankukun pogoshipeoyo~~~ TT TT

i still have sand in my shoes
Mood:  accident prone
and i cant shake the thought of you
i should get on, forget you, but why would i want to?
i know we said good bye, anything else would have been confused, but I~~~~~~~~~~
wanna see you again



just got an email from emlio. he got back to mexico a week or so ago. he's really happy to be home. i'm not sure when dany goes home, but i hope to hear from her soon sometime too. kind of flipped out last time i talked torose, i hope she still loves me.....i'll call her again some time. i really need her to stick around cuz i really love that girl.
tracy called at grams house the other day. it was nice talking to her, and i havent really since i went to korea. she talked to me one time on msn but i couldnt talk back, so this was nice. it ended sort of akwardly cuz of a miscommunication with mom and her, and mom comes home from grams house all mad at me, of course its myfault right? right infront of jack and everything. how embaressing! she apologized later, and everything went back to normal.

things here are less than normal i think, but its hard to say whta i'd even consider normal anyways. i think i just need a break from this place for a lil bit. thats pretty much why i left for korea in the first place, and now its not much different than before i left. it feels like no time went by at all,that i've just been asleep, or dreaming for a long time. no one here can relate to that experience.

i cant leave things well alone
understand i'm accident prone

i got all my classes for next year situated after i got home. that seems to be fine, and i think with just the hours i have for being at the middleschool will be enough toget a health credit and an english credit. also im getting an extra credit for foreign language. just 1 credit. personally i think i deserve more than that, but i should do fine with just that. im taking a 7 class work load, which gives me space to negotiate, and i can drop a class if ith ink its too much.
got a german book from mrs lambert so i could study some of that before tking germna again. i havent really studied it like i promised myself i would over the summer. but things are really hectic. i havent even hd the time or motivation to unpack all my luggage sufficiently.

once i got back i went on 2 trips, one with jimmy jack and jimmy's family. we went camping up north with laurie so she could see moose. and we did! we saw 7 of them, which was really exciting for her and she took lots of pictures. it was a bad few days to go camping because the weather was really crappy, but thats what makes camping fun right? the misquitos and the soggy tents, what a blast right?!? haha

the second trip we went on after i got home was a trip to old orchard beach. it was really good weather which was so nice. laurie, laura, ( the mexican exchange student) mom me aunt karen all went up and met lucretia and some of herfriends and family members. first day we spent some time at the beach. the second day we went to fun town and splash town in saco. that night we stayed at a hotel right on the beach and did a walk around of the old orchard strip. me and my aunt karen were planningo n getting tattoos but theplace we watned to get that done at was closed that night and didnt open on wednesdays, (our last day in oob) plus i guess its a new policy to not let minors get tattoos even if their parents are present and have given them permission. so i probably wouldnt ahve been able to get one anyways. oob was a blast, the beach is so beautiful. i even went in the water. it was pleasently numbing, but good.

tomorrow me mom and laurie are spending the night in portland so we can get laurie to the airport early wednesday morning. i've only known laurie a short time, but she is such a sweet girl. she is also a really important part of moms life too. i'll miss her i know. and she is really sad about leaving.

been partying enough now that im home. last weekend cayla and i went to jodi and leslies house in brooks for a party, and didnt get home until 5 the next morning, but had caught a really bad cold, so had to stay home all that day to recover.

went to see the sisterhood of the traveling pants with max laurie and chas. it was good, but very chick flicky, and some parts were just stupid. but over all it was an ok movie. dad came home that day too, so me and laurie went to the airport to meet him. we dont know when he is suppose to go back to work, but seems to htink they will call him back at any time.

tracy comes home on the 13th. i've been telling everyone she was coming home on august 11th but the rotary changed it back to july because they didnt' think she had anywheres to stay for the extra month.

i have to do a project for the unity rotary on my year in korea and that is due tomorrow for their rotary breakfast. it only has to be 15 minutes long, so i shouldnt be stressing over it like i am. i only have today left to put that together, so im going to go do some work on that.

-love-

will you remember me, cuz i know i wont forget you
Mood:  d'oh
everything is moving so fast now
and i forget some people in korea might still check this, like my exchange student friends. plus i'm not writing much in my journals here, i just can't findthe time i guess to catch up.

first, i was suppose to hang out with jun-hyeok on wednesday, the day before i left. he canceled really last minute, and had school things to do. so i was pretty wrecked about that. havent talked to him since but because he's not responding to cyworld memos and i can't call. i guess he has a girlfriend now, so that could explain a lot. thats dissapointing. but kwang-hun came to visit, and dany, very short notice came up from gun-san to visit me. that made me really happy. i had been upset with kwang-hun for something, but instantly forgave, well not forgave, but dismissed for the time being, what i was upset about when dany arrived. he stayed until 11, then left. me and dany stayed up almost all night talking and all sorts of things. i dont knwo what i would have done if she wasnt there with me. honestly i dont know. julian called just before we left to tell me he coudlnt get a bus to the airport. but at least he tried. my family couldn't even stay to get me on the plane, they left me at the baggage check counter with dany to get everything straightened out.

at first they warned me at the baggage check counter, that i might not be able to bring my guitar with me ont he plane, and if i coudlnt i would have to put it in the cargo hold. surely it would be ruined, so i was relaly stressing about that. luckily the purser or who ever has last say over it, didnt really seem to notice. phew! at the security check i had to leave dany. it was sad, but we promised we would meet again. im gonna miss her soo much, shes more than a friend, i love her,and my whole exchange student family, soo much!! its hard leaving them and not haring from them everyday, or being able to just call them up, see whats going on. i cant believe it. but now i'm in the usa and can talk to rose more often. thats a sure plus!!


i woke up at 7 am on june second. got on the plane at 10:30, am ,got to dallas at 11:30 am...but it was a 12 hour plane flight. i waited for 2 hours for my flight to boston, and got there at the logan international airport at 6:16 pm, on june second. i was up a loooong time. so...

i got home on the second...that was about 2 weeks ago...
and its been a hectic 2 weeks. first, the trip home was amazingly long and boring. i thought i'd never make it to boston. my watch was still on korean time and i thought I had missed my plane to boston from dallas, but actually i had 2 hours to wait. ooops number 1. i hadn't exchanged won to dollars before i left korea either. i had korean coins too, but i can't use them in dallas to make a phone call or anything. dany had exchanged me a 100 dollar bill for 10 10,000 won bills before i left. i still had a few won left, but you coulcnt get them exchanged for dollars and can really break a hundered for coffee. so i sat and waited patiently for my flight to boston.

(the boys are here we're going camping, so i btter go now, more later)

will you remember me, cuz i know i wont forget you
Mood:  d'oh
everything is moving so fast now
and i forget some people in korea might still check this, like my exchange student friends. plus i'm not writing much in my journals here, i just can't findthe time i guess to catch up.

first, i was suppose to hang out with jun-hyeok on wednesday, the day before i left. he canceled really last minute, and had school things to do. so i was pretty wrecked about that. havent talked to him since but because he's not responding to cyworld memos and i can't call. i guess he has a girlfriend now, so that could explain a lot. thats dissapointing. but kwang-hun came to visit, and dany, very short notice came up from gun-san to visit me. that made me really happy. i had been upset with kwang-hun for something, but instantly forgave, well not forgave, but dismissed for the time being, what i was upset about when dany arrived. he stayed until 11, then left. me and dany stayed up almost all night talking and all sorts of things. i dont knwo what i would have done if she wasnt there with me. honestly i dont know. julian called just before we left to tell me he coudlnt get a bus to the airport. but at least he tried. my family couldn't even stay to get me on the plane, they left me at the baggage check counter with dany to get everything straightened out.

at first they warned me at the baggage check counter, that i might not be able to bring my guitar with me ont he plane, and if i coudlnt i would have to put it in the cargo hold. surely it would be ruined, so i was relaly stressing about that. luckily the purser or who ever has last say over it, didnt really seem to notice. phew! at the security check i had to leave dany. it was sad, but we promised we would meet again. im gonna miss her soo much, shes more than a friend, i love her,and my whole exchange student family, soo much!! its hard leaving them and not haring from them everyday, or being able to just call them up, see whats going on. i cant believe it. but now i'm in the usa and can talk to rose more often. thats a sure plus!!


i woke up at 7 am on june second. got on the plane at 10:30, am ,got to dallas at 11:30 am...but it was a 12 hour plane flight. i waited for 2 hours for my flight to boston, and got there at the logan international airport at 6:16 pm, on june second. i was up a loooong time. so...

i got home on the second...that was about 2 weeks ago...
and its been a hectic 2 weeks. first, the trip home was amazingly long and boring. i thought i'd never make it to boston. my watch was still on korean time and i thought I had missed my plane to boston from dallas, but actually i had 2 hours to wait. ooops number 1. i hadn't exchanged won to dollars before i left korea either. i had korean coins too, but i can't use them in dallas to make a phone call or anything. dany had exchanged me a 100 dollar bill for 10 10,000 won bills before i left. i still had a few won left, but you coulcnt get them exchanged for dollars and can really break a hundered for coffee. so i sat and waited patiently for my flight to boston.

(the boys are here we're going camping, so i btter go now, more later)

"so make the best of this test and dont ask why
Mood:  happy
its not a question but a lesson learned in time
it's something unpredictable
but in the end its right
i hope you had the time of your life"

so since i havent been able to update since that crazy monday, its about a week later but it feels like alife time. i could have lived 3 lifetimes over, i've been soooo busy!!! its been unreal, but ill try and sum it up for anyone who has been reading this and is worried about the current situation. since i got kicked outof school i was living with the koeran teacher. i had never met him before i went to live wiht him, he wasn't one of my teachers. he's a 3rd grade teacher i think. his family is really nice, and they have a son and a daughter but she was in seoul studying at a univeristy so i didnt see her at all. it was realy great staying htere and i was very very thankful to have some place to go last minute. the first night i was there we wetn to vist a friend of his, who is also ironically the vice principle of st.pauls girls highschool. after learning that it was a lil akward. from what mr soh had told me it was her and the principles and his decision for me not to go to that schoool any more. but later she told me she hadn't said she wanted me to leave the school. they were on my side they said.

it rained a lot that night, i remember cuz we got soaked walking to his friends house, and i had no clothes to change into, since no one went to pick up my luggage at ji-na's house. its like an omen; it rained the day i moved to soeul too. tuesday was really sad, but i did better wednesday. i was more prepared, i knew i was leaving and could ocme to terms with it. packing suddenly when ididnt even konw i was changing families was really sudden, and i still had to go to school that day. i didn't cry nearly as much on wednesday. everyone knew it was my last day by then. first they told me i would go to seoul to a new family that morning. the morning came and went, and no one called for me. at noon they told me i would go for my things at ji-na's house and go back tothe korean teachers house at 3. the girls in my class threw a lil partyfor me, it was last minute, as was the whole moving business, but they pulled everything together prety well. they have me a framed picture of me wtih the 2-3 class. it was great. i was doing fine, until ga-yeong started crying. that was all i needed. 3 came and went to and they told me i would leave at 5 instead. so for the next hour we all just talked and spent quality time together. 5shi-e mr soh came to get me and the vice principle gave me a ride back to kim sang-bae's house. (thats thekorean teachers name) they had brought my luggage, and everything. i stayed with them until sunday. they were too too nice, always doing things with me so i wouldnt be bored, and talking to me, letting me watch tv or use the computer when ever i wanted. on thursday, the first day i didn't have to go toschool (ahhhh freedom) rose called me! we were about to go shopping, so i had to cut it shorter than i had planned, but we still talkedfor about 30 minutes. it was so great to hear from her, and when i get back to the usa we plan to call much more often. since the phone bill wont be so outrageous. afterwards i went shopping with mr kim's wife. we'll call her kye-ryong HM cuz kye-ryong was the city they lived in. HM is host mom, you see? we went out to eat too. friday we went swimming at the public pool near their house. it was fun, but its not like lake swimming. they said i swim like "lake style" not pool lane style.but im still a good swimmer. they took me to dunkin donuts afterwards. i love that family. saturday KG called and said the principle wantedme to move out of that family i dont know why but i guess she just wanted all ties with me and that school severed. what? i wasnt that that bad. realy. julian has been so much more than helpful since i found out i was getting kicked out. he got in contact with one of his friends, ju-yeon, who i met last time i was in seoul,and asked her if i could stay there for the last 2 weeks i was in korea. ju-yeon and her family, being nice nice people, sait that theycould make that work. i got the information to KG, who then talked to chang-won park about it. if i hadn't found this family i would have gone to live with him. (chang-won park) but thankfully,he was allfor the idea (and to show his appreciation to julians family for making those arrangements for me, he sent him a "complimentary" box of ramyeon to his family. oh gee, your too kind. haha) then on saturday we went swimming again, and out to lunch. later they took me to dae-jeon to buy a luggage bag. PHEW cuz damn did i reallyreally need another luggage bag. it was only 61,000 won (bout 60$) and its good.

sunday at 11 i took the bus to seoul. it was really sunny and bright. then randomly on the way to seoul itjust started down pouring out of no wheres. strange. when i got to seoul ju-yeons mom and dad were waiting for me at the bus stop. their house is in mok-tong. its about an hour from kang-nam, where i always meet julian, but only a few minutes from kwang-hun's area of seoul, and aju-yeons univeristy. she goes to yeon-sei. its the second best university in all of korea. pretty impressive right?? seoul really has beautiful people. ask anyone they'll tell you so. and its true. that univeristy because its such a top univeristy in the whole country, has a lot of exchange students, and all teh students i think can speak english. the first class i took with ju-yeon was an english class. they were speaking in very good english.it was a politics class, which is really interesting to me. it was about japan, and the situation with japan and korea, and japan and the usa. if you dont already knwo this, i'll tell you. korea really hates japan. haha. so theywere talking about japans identity and they want to be forgiven and think they have suffered enough, but korea and the other countries say no of course you havent. then this one student, out of the blue askes, so when is japan gonna sink anyways? lol counting down the days? it was great. there was a japanese student in that class, put a lil tension onthe subject, but humorous anyways. the other 2 classes i took with her were in korean, and were really realy boring. i was trying soooooo hard not to fall asleep in the third one. wow i would have felt really bad if i had. oops! i didn't really meet many people, the studets at julians universityare definitely more friendly than the students there. it would be nice to go to that university for a year of college, i mean the campus is nice and its a good place, but i dont htink i'd get much out of that as an experience. so that was tuesday. monday i didnt go to school with ju-yeon, i was real tired from packing and everything. it really had been a stressful week you know?

i met julin monday night, i took the bus to the subway and then caught a subway to kang-nam, so i was pretty proud of myself for not getting lost. seoul is something like the 11th biggest city in the world. and i got to where iwas going with out incident, it was quite the accomplishment for me. we walked around, got some food, went out for a drink, and i got a transportation card, so i can take the subways freely. great! kang-nam is a nice place to just walk around, and it has good shops and friendly people. its also not so difficult getting into bars either. clubs are more difficult to get into, idno why. we might try going friday for ju-yeons birthday. *crosses fingers* i took the subway home a lil too late,and the buses stop running at midnight, so i had to take a taxi. this is complicated, because it involves looking "really lost and stupid" (julians adive), asking ot use someones phone, getting help, and i got really lucky cuz a woman took a taxi with me and paid for it, because her stop was right next to mine. heh heh.

tuesday night after visiting ju-yeons school i went to kang-nam to meet up with julian and his girlfriend. we went out for drinks, and dokk-bokki, my idea. jae-il said he was too busy to meet up with us, which kind of ticked me off. he's always too busy. but romi, julians girlfriend, called him againfor us, told him she would buy drinks and good food, and you just cant refuse an invitation from someone older than you. especially if they are buying the drinks and food. we had to leave at 10 so didn't get to see much of them, but it was better than nothing. then today i went to julians college to visit people. now we are in julians class, its a computer class, they're making 3d stuff i guess. i'll go back to seoul sometime today. maybe tomorrow night i'll meet kyang-hun, nd i'm suppose to call emilio some time today too. just a few days now, never a dull moment!!

big news from maine
http://www.wabi.tv/broadcast_script.asp?at=5/16/2005+5:30pm#NAKED

http://www.streaking.org/phorum/read.php?f=1&i=5513&t=5510

feels the sting, dries her eyes:: finds her self...opens the door and sighs
Mood:  accident prone
people see right through you
everyone one who knew you well
falls apart
by herself
days are long and nothing is wasted

i'll just put the email i wrote to julian in here. its what i'v been emailing people who should knowwhats going on. it sums up everthing that happened pretty good last tuesday.

[but we didnt knwo if it was ok by my school for monday,cuz we asked last minute, and we had no plan of me even missing tuesday, so really it was neither of ours fault, it just didnt have to make me look bad when you wrote to him. neither of us are to blame. anyways right now im way way to upset about other things to bother arguing about it. i called you today before i had even gotten to school. between when i woke up this morning and right now could have been months, it was a long long day. and its not even 7 pm yet!
i know your dying to find out what happened. so i'll leave you in suspense no longer. first i woke up at 8, and wanted to get to school on time to make a good impression you know? day of judgment and all. i get all ready and my host mom says no we will go to school together. (huh?) so then i know im in some deep shit. she is all smiling , and tells me to pack my bags. after i talked to kim gabin last night i was pretty sure they had already decided to kick me out of school, but i was not at all expecting to switch host families. that hit me really really hard. i wasnt even sure i was that morning either cuz i kinda didn't believe it, but ji-eon asked what were were doing and my host mom told her "onul, lori ga" which means lori leaves today. and i started crying of course. and asked where i was going to go. she told me i'd go to a teachers house, and gave me a name i'd never heard of. she gave me some bags and we packed everything, ( i still realy need a bigger luggage bag). then we waited around for a while, but no one came to get me so she called and found out i would go to his house later that day. so she sent me to school, smiling still. waving, have a nice day lori. oh sure..you bet. what a bitch. i oculdnt believe it. i get there and immedietly try and find jina, and was crying and no one knew anything. none of the teachers even knew. jina knew of course. it had nothing to do with her. her mom had told her last night i would leave today. but she didnt want. me and jina are really close friends. i didn't care that i was getting kicked out of school, what really hurt was being moved away from jina. shes my best friend in nonsan. so that was hard. mr soh, the english teacher, came and talked to me. he told me they had to release me from their school. noooo shit? i knew that. and he said i would go to a teachers home for the night, and tomorrow you'll never guess where im going! seoul! im so fuckin scared. chang won park is going to see me, and probably send me home, cuz he said he would if i messed up again. even though i didnt really have a chance to mess up again, he sitll might send me home early, since now i have no family and no school, and pretty much no reason to be here. so anyways, i told him all that is what i expected, and now i just needed my transcript and my money for the month of may, and i would go peacefully and quietly. but noooo, he says becuuse of the situation they can't give me my transcript, and i'm no longer a part of the schoool, they aren't required to give me my money. wtf?!?!!? i have no money! and unles i'm on the next plane to miguk then i'm pretty screwed finance wise. i've been crying all friggen day. and i think about it and everything that has happened, how my life has totally fallen through in a matter of 24 hours and i start crying again. where does it all come from? eventually i'll be totally evaporated, dehydrated, and wont have anything left to cry out i think! he said he would call the roatary people, because i wanted to go to gunsan for the remainder of my time here. i talked to the secretary like we thought i would have to do right? she was realy...dumb about all this. like lori you have to follow the rules. you broke a lot of rules do you understand? thats why you are getting kicked out. but really, after seoul i havent broken any rules, so i DONT realy understand why this all happened. then she told me lori everything is fine. FINE how far off is that???? FINE???? its sooo sooo soo far from fine. everything is NOT FINE. wtf. and chang won park will be just as helpful i'm afraid. i know he wont understand where i'm coming from. so i went back to class, and just vegged, and did nothing. i ate lunch with jina like usual. and we had art class after that. the art teacher is my home room teacher. he said he had no idea i was leaving tomorrow, he had just found out. but wtf, mr soh told me he had been going to him with problems wth me all along. so now its some big surprise?? and i really liked that teacher too! so idno. um. then what. so muhc happened. i left all my bags in the door way at jina's house, and since i'm not staying at this house for long it would be pointless to bring them here.where ever i'm going to go tomorrow, i'll just bring them with me then. during art class we didnt really do anything, painted right? but the art teacher left half way through the class (its a 2 hour class) and so me and jina were sitting there, and then she starts crying, and i start crying, and we leave class cuz we are both making fools of our selves. haha. and we spent most of the second part of class outside talking and crying nd remembering. it was relaly sad. later after that i met with the principle, who gave me my money for the month of may ( i guess they reconsidered, so i was real surprised) and mr soh told me he would get the transcript for me as i had requested. so good thing i asked cuz if i hadn't they had no intention what so ever of getting those things to me. we also talked mre about why i was leaving. because i had missed a lot of days of school and my host mom had worried about me a lot. mr soh said she had called when iwas in seoul because she worried aobut me and that really ticked everyone off ( so we alreayd knew that right? strike one, i got my wwarning, i dont knwo what else i did that set them off so they decided to expel me) then he said she also called last night too. wtf???? that i knew nohting about. she said she was having problemns and because i wanst home last weekend she was worried. NO NO NO cuz i asked permission from everyone i had to, to go on that trip to gunsan. so now i dont knwo what she is talking about. i didnt do anything wrong, she just pulled that out of a hat. its such bullshit. and i have been going to school like i was suppose to ever since i got back from seoul. so they just up and decided last night that a first warning wasnt enough i guess, and they would have to expel me. it was all really hard to understand why all ths was happening. no on eunderstood it either, and it all traced back to my host mom kicking me out. since i had no home the school decided it would be good if they kicked me out too i guess. so at 5 i left and went to the korean teachers home. i had never met him but he is really really nice. sooooo relieved!!!! we left at 5:10 and went to his house. he has a son my age and a duaghter maybe a year younger or older im ot sure. but we got to his house in idno wht city. and i met his wife, and me and him and his son had supper together at his brothers restaurant they live over.its a nice place and people are being really nice to me, and at 9 when his wife gets out of work we're gonna have a party to celebrate me getting kicked out of school ^^ jk, to celebrate me visiting their home. now, my contacts are really dry and irritated from crying all day and looking at a comptuer doesnt help so im gonna go and emilios gonna call me. since i dont have my bags with me i dont have my phone book so i cant call you. i hope you had time to read all this i know tis a lot im real sorry.

well, hope things are great for you! nad maybe i'll see you sooner than you though, if i'm going to seoul, we could meet! hah! look on the bright side right? k well talk to you later
always
rori]

i'll let that sink in

EVERLAND
Mood:  energetic
i'll break it up a lil bit, cuz its a long story.
and i'll start with everland. our class trip. we had to wake up early to get to school at 7:30. well its early for me, but they usually have to be at school by that time. we were a lil later getting out than planned, but it was totally not my fault. i was awake before jina even. so no problems there. bin came and walked to school with us. everyone was waiting by te front gate for friends and for everything to start rolling. they all put so much effort into what they were wearing, because it's not every day they have a chance to dress up. its not such a big deal for me, since i wasn't expected to wear a uniform all the time. the day my family went to dae-jon with out me, jina bought a new outfit, really really cute, specifically for that occasion. very "punky" as she likes to call her fashion. i lvoe that girl, shes too cute! at 8 they did a speech thing, and everyone got on the bus. we brought like 5 buses. all my clas was on the same bus, and i sat next to jina. it was a 2.5 hour ride about...so we took plenty of pictures on the way up with sol-hee, eun-jeong, jin-yeong, hwe-hyang, hyeun-hee, hyang-rin. all my group of friends.

I was really surprised when we got there, at the amount of other buses and people. it was all groups of girls, from girl schools. jina asks, where are all the boys!! i thought i saw some, so i point "over there" her- nooo lori those are elementary school kids" oh oops my bad. yes elementary boys! assah!! haha
we went on 5-6 different rides. ka-young had the map, and that place is pretty friggin big, so we followed her. first we went on this roller coaster that had the longest line ever, it just kept going and going. right when you thought the ride beginning was aroundt he next corner you'd find another maze of people just as dissapointed as you. it was alright, but it was a 40 minute wait. it almost started raining but luckily that didn't last. it cleared up a little after.

supper time, more later

later~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

everland was much much better than what i was expecting. i dont know why but i didnt give it much though, and just assumed it would be something like the bangor fair. the festivals i go to in korea are really dissapointing, so it didn't seem too crazy an assumption that their theme parks might be a let down too.

the weather, even though it started out clowdy, got really nice by noon. i even think i got a sunburn. a small one though, cuz it wasn't that that sunny. we went on the flume ride, that was a long line too, but fun. every time we were all standing still was a good opertunity for pictures. so i have a lot of pictures of me and my friends standing in lines. ga-young, and hyang-rin took most of the pictures. i didn't because my camera is a piece of crap compared to theirs' so i knew i could just scrap them off their cyworlds. the pictures i did take are in nonsan, and theres no way for me to get them now. i'll have to redownload them on this computer, but it involves reinstalling my software and im not really that motivated if i'll only be here a few days. ga-young and ji-son and calorie are not huge fans of thrilling rides, so next they went on the kiddie elephant ride. we got the cutest pictures of them, they are in my yahoo album, i just need to label them. still, not real motivated. duno why. here i can use the computer as much as i want. wahooo~~~ ^^. there was a bulavourd (or how ever you want to spell it) made to look like down town hollywood. the rollercoaster there we went on, and wow my brain was all mush when we ewre done. it was terrible. it did the loop-di-loop thing, but my head was being bounced off the sides of the rollercoaster too much for me to really enjoy the thrill of it. damn. i bet it looked funny though, haha. we watched a show put on by all foriegners. they looked british, but all around my friends are going ohhhh "for-ig-ners" so i was kind of feeling like "hey hey! you have your own foreigner right here!! yah hey! pay attention to ME!!" haha. it was cute. we got lost trying to find our way out though. it really is a big place. there were several ways we could have taken , i think we took the one that involved the most climbin of hills and steps though. ahh! what a fun experience!!! ihave the cutest picture of me and jina holding hands and walking somewhere, but i can't get it off cyworld and put it on yahoo. crappy. we were on the bus again at 3, and then went to an art museum, because osme fo the parents had complained going to a theme park was to much fun, not enough education. it wwas a really small art exhibit, with a huge, amazing garden around it. we spent more time outisde taking pictures, than inside looking at the art work. out in the garden they had a lot of pictures of naked people, which surprised me because korea is so modest usually. the museum was all in korean style, which si soo pretty. the korean entrances, and the bulding was korean style. of course. i was the most impressed with it, since museums in the usa are a lot more boring. after we had taken a sufficient amount of pictures, we were back on the bus by...4:40 at the latest. at 7 maybe, we got back. all the 2nd grade teachers were by the gate to welcome us back. i took ji-na with me to the shi-nae to buy a dress i had seen when i had gone shopping with dany. its real cute, and was only 30,000 won. we went home, and that was that.